It Hasn't Hit Me Until Now...

We've talked about it a lot of times.
We even made plans. Made promises. Made security blankets.
Prepared for it.
I didn't really care, I'm too busy to think about it anyway.
It's not going to affect me that much.

I thought so, until I heard the seriousness in your voice.
Until I sensed the loneliness in your tone.
Until I realized the melancholy that is now.

On the verge of losing someone
on the edge of a cliff
this is probably the beginning of the end
I can't see why it should be like this.

It has not hit me until now.