Well, it's been a while and all that's percolating in my mind are just plain rants... It's been a really frustrating stretch dating back from my summer MCAT quest (which turned out horribly wrong) up to this day, where I am still feeling the remnants of an untimely burnout.
Well since it's really close to Thanksgiving Day, I'll turn this inside out. I thank the Supreme Being for all these killer challenges that will mold me into becoming a good doctor in the future...
-Summer MCAT review...been doing real great on AAMCs and The Berkeley Review Practice Exams. I've hit a few scores as low as 27 and as good as 34... been averaging 32-33.
-Night before the MCAT- Aug. 24th, 2009.... Been really bored and kinda freaking out- I SHOULD BE STUDYING! Decided to go to a coffee shop. Sipped coffee outside while going over material. Decided to JOG at Cerritos Regional Park. It was 9pm, a little foggy, and cold for a summer night. BIGGEST MISTAKE EVER.
-Exam day, August 25th. Woke up with chills. Took the exam with chills, fever, and an irritating runny nose. Realized the inevitable outcome. To temporarily remedy this, I went with my friends to a baseball game that night at Angel Stadium and got piss-drunk.
-Later that night, went to Sharkey's in Newport Beach. Had no recollection of what happened.
-Later that week, went to Las Vegas. Returned home Sunday only recalling about 1/3 of what happened in the trip. Oh shit. FALL SEMESTER BEGINS THE FOLLOWING DAY!!!
-Burnt out.
-Sept. 29, 2009. Afternoon. Studying for a midterm. Checked AAMC. Saw MCAT scores. A plunge to a 28. Did not study anymore. Got teary-eyed.
-Downward-spiral in classes. Did not talk to anyone for a solid week. Developed extreme acne. Hated the world.
-TODAY- time to recuperate. Time to repair borderline A's. Time to raise B+s to As. Time to think. Time to rise again...
It's been really tough. But I have one more chance to patch things up. One more chance to let resolute diligence to take over.
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